ahh.

decisions. so right now, the idea of something is amazing. but i can't stop thinking about reality. like in the long run, is this really worth it? i shouldn't be questioning it. if it's something i love.. why can i picture myself finding something i can love more. sometimes the feeling is completely gone to how i have felt about it before. where is it going? i don't know. why can't it be like how it used to be? when i first got it. i guess life just happens.