LIPS PIERCED...

these past few weeks have been nothing but hell. all i have been trying to do is be better. but there are always those moments when you feel like you have failed completely. all i have been doing is trying to gain back people's trust. but at that moment when you are trying to do so hard.. they smack you in the face with reality telling you that they don't. welcome to life. reality sucks. i have fallen to my knees countless times praying that everything would be back to normal. obviously that isn't happening anytime soon. everyone keeps telling me time will heal it all.... time is taking forever! i'm wishing that i would wake up from this nightmare. i thought i was doing so well but of course i get smacked back down to ground zero. feeling like this whole thing isn't going to end. i swear its not. someone please wake me up when this decides to be over. i wish i could tell people how i feel, but words can't describe the hell i am going through.

this is such a 'pity me' blog. but for goodness sake, i definitely needed it. i do know that time will heal. seriously trying to have the patience for it. i just keep reminding myself that there can't be a rainbow without the rain. the rainbow is right around the corner. i just need to keep working hard to get there. not easy. at all. but hopefully it will be worth the wait and trials i am going to have to face.

 welcome to life.

the moment when the one thing you weren't expecting in your life decides to show up. 

but its the absolute best feeling.

see ya peeps...

I'M GOIN' TO MEXICO! ADIOS!

i hate how true this is

Change..

It has been about two years since I have graduated high school! Holy cow, I still cannot believe it's been that long. Not only that, I can't believe how much I have changed since then.... And only for the better! Well I hope so at least..

Graduation Photo!

And this was just recent!

Besides on how I look, I have changed a lot. When I graduated high school, I would not have guessed how my life is now. Crazy how plans change. But I am so grateful for all of the many choices and decisions I have made to get me to to point.

I thought that I would be at the U studying some communications major just to get it done.

I would have never thought I would be enrolled at the Photography program at SLCC. 

I wouldn't trade ANYTHING for how my life is. 

I know that I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing.

And that is the ABSOLUTE best feeling.

all i'm gonna say is.....

wow. i am very amazed by some boys who are extremely cocky and full of themselves.

sarcastic? not one bit.

grateful

today was not my day. 

i shed a few tears. 

and of course i turned to christine about it. 

she has been there for me through the thick and thin the past 2 years. 

i don't know what i would do without her. 

i hear this huge bang at the door and next thing i realize it was for me.

it was from christine!!! 

and that's what she left me! 

diet coke and everything! 

not only that but the most amazing note. 

made me feel a lot better about some stuff. 

i definitely have the best of best friends.

i love you doug!